took a drive down suntec with a friend this evening. This is the 1st time we went down that place in about 2 months. Tried to avoid that place cos of the pre IMF set up and also during the convention itself. WE were surprised to find some much greeneries that were added to make the roads more "gardeny?". I supposed the relevant authorities were trying to re-enforce the "Garden City" part to the foreign delegates. Suntec city itself also had a mini revamp and was it my own imagination or did the gigantic screen really look so much clearer now?

My friend then made a comment which got mi thinking. " Don't you find it interesting that we asians always do things for other people to see and never do things for ourselves? We beautified our places to make it look good, we even sweep the floor when we know guests are coming!"

To a certain extent, i think he is right. Hiow many of us had made choices when we are young because our parents tell us to, because our parent would be happy at our choices and we do not want to disappoint them? And the sad part is when we grow up or reach adulthood , we realised we are not leading a life that we really want, we were just leading a life that our parents wanted to live but were not able to. And when we realised that , and wanted to change . We realised we can't cos it is too late and our parents are getting old and we dun want to further disappoint them? Some of my friends managed to go out of that viscious cirlce. I am trying to but i realised many of my friends are not.

Then again, how many of us really know what we want out of life? If we cannot make a decision, might as well let someone who had experiences tell us what to do rite? We are sad.

Beyond 情人

been listening to this MTV , taking a fag and thinking about her