xjapan forever love, the last live

this is the 8 min version.

xjapan-forever love

recently, i have been trying to find songs which i liked in the past. Forever Love by Xjapan is one of such songs. I remembered looping this song constantly when i was suffering a heartbreak during my JC days. Although till now, i have yet to find out the english translation for this song, but yet i feel a certain connection to the sadness in the lead singer's tone. I think one of the marvel of music or rather good music are as such - even though we do not speak the same language, but a good music or song should be able to connect the listener with the lyricist.
I have been listening to this song over and over again recently...

Just realised i could be an egoistic bitch. came across this website as some of my friends' blog and i actually did one for myself and msned to my friends telling them to filled them up for me.
Guess, there's always the inate curiousity in everyone of us to know how does the society or our circle of friends perceive us as...

Which brings me to a rather philosphical question. Are we good person because we want to do good things or is it because we know that it is the social norm to be acceptable as a good person. So if the society does not deem being a good person as acceptable, would all of us still be a good person or we will unleash the devil within us. Bottom line, when a person is a good person, if he/she really a good person by nature or is it because he/she is just putting up an act


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Arena

(known to self and others)

cheerful, energetic, friendly, silly, witty

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able, adaptable, confident, extroverted, happy, helpful, idealistic, independent, observant, proud, reflective, relaxed, searching, sentimental, spontaneous

Façade

(known only to self)

accepting

Unknown

(known to nobody)

bold, brave, calm, caring, clever, complex, dependable, dignified, giving, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, loving, mature, modest, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, religious, responsive, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, shy, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy, warm, wise

Dominant Traits

60% of people agree that red biscuit is friendly
60% of people think that red biscuit is independent

All Percentages

able (20%) accepting (0%) adaptable (20%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (0%) cheerful (20%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (20%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (40%) extroverted (40%) friendly (60%) giving (0%) happy (20%) helpful (20%) idealistic (20%) independent (60%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (0%) mature (0%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (20%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (20%) quiet (0%) reflective (20%) relaxed (20%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (40%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (20%) shy (0%) silly (40%) spontaneous (20%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (0%) warm (0%) wise (0%) witty (20%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 19.6.2006, using data from 5 respondents.
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Final Fantasy X Yuna & Tidus (Dream of Me by Kirsten Dunst)

whoa..i did not know kristen durst could sing! Anyway i still love the old Faye wong version better.

my life feel empty. had this feeling after chatting with my friend last nite over a plate of honey coated tissue prata. My friend, being the ever "good" christian was telling me - i need to go church so that GOD could show me the way. Is HIM really the reason to be?

Was thinking about it on the way back after watching the France - Swiss match. I managed to dissect my thoughts into many parts. I think i am really a good science teacher.

1. Religious point of view
As a free thinker, maybe i feel empty because i feel that i lacked guidance or a strong faith that would "show me the way to live." But whether to be a christian or buddhist or any other remains to be seem. I had a lot of bad experiences with people from the christian faternity before yet i do see myself becoming a christian due to my childhood experiences in a sunday school. However, the more i read about buddhism, the more i am able to relate to it as it is my personal belief that the teaching of buddha is guiding us to become a good person.

2. Lack of a better half
I think i need a soul mate - a gal. I am keeping my finger crossed that i am able to meet one in NIE soon. Comeon! i am just looking for a intelligent, confident, independent, sporty and pleasant looking gal who dun mind my crudeness, frankness and horniness! Is it that really so hard to find?

3. Lack of accomplishment
seriously, what have i achieved so far? Nothing that i could be proud of! I reckon it is due to my lack of perserverance.

4. Lack of good company
I have problem communicating with people at times. I tend to loss focus and get bored very easily. Therefore, sometimes, i feel i have no friends to talk to when i am undergoing an emotional breakdown. However, i am also brought up in a manner that i try to deal with my own problems.

Four points, hmm...come to think about it, i may not be good at dissecting my problems after all. I am so lonely...

Sometimes, i wondered when i looked out at my window, whether it is just me or there's really a lot of single people looking out and staring at the night skies and totally clueless how they are going to spend their next day. Sometimes, i get so bored i find myself sighing and realized i got nobody that i could call or talk with. The funny thing is i used to have no problem doing so when i was younger. I was not brought up during the handphone era. I used to have a book when i wrote down the addresses and home phone number of my friends. It was such a hassle talking to friends back then as i probably have to fight the rights to use the phone from my family members. Yet, when i have msn and hp now. I find myself talking lesser and lesser to people.
Have we all really becoming too self-centred, keeping everything to ourselves and retreating into our own "solace" without realising it?

http://home.graffiti.net/vincentchu:graffiti.net/old-parent.htm

take some time and go through the above link. I almost feel like crying once i read what was written in the page. We always think about our worries, our future and constantly forgetting our parents...the tolerance they have given to us, the pain they suffered and the silence they gone through.

i have been too selfish

Urban Ninja

in the true spirit of parkour!

i been lopping this song in my ipod nano recently. I keep having this image of my playing this song in front of a crowd with the girl that i liked in the crowd.



《我在想你的时候睡着了_Mojo》歌词

今天晚上 你又让我牵挂
你不太愿意
让我知道你在干么
太多情绪也许让你彷徨
请不要担心
快点回到我的身旁
我在想你的时候 睡着了
我在想你的时候 牵挂着
想你的时候 哭着
我在想你的时候 失望了

今天晚上 你又让我牵挂
你不太愿意
让我知道你在干么
太多情绪也许让你彷徨
请不要担心
快点回到我的身旁
我在想你的时 候睡着了
我在想你的时候 牵挂着
我在想你的时候 犹豫着
我在想你的时候 失望了

今天晚上 你又让我牵挂
你不太愿意
让我知道你在干么
太多情绪也许让你彷徨
请不要担心
快点回到我的身旁
我在想你的时候 睡着了
我在想你的时候 牵挂着
我在想你的时候 犹豫着
想你的时候失望了

Just had an interesting conversation with my cousin when my aunt and him popped by my place to pay respect to my "deceased" granny.

He had just gotten himself back on the dating scene, apparently he had been seeing a lot of "actions" recently. (Please note, my actions referring to DATES only). I must admit, everytime i see him, he keep looking better and better. Lucky bastard.

Anyway, he was telling me his philosophy about love and relationships. To him, it seems to boil down or so he claimed to find the scientific explanation to love and relationships. It is simply all about self - interest!

To further explain, in a relationship, if you were to ask GIRL A on why she likes GUY A

GIRL A: I love him for his sincerity, his love, his maturity, his looks, his experiences ...etc...

But the truth is, it is all about the simple fact that GUY A can make GIRL A HAPPY rite?It is all about him making her happy. You are comfortable with that guy or girl not because of all the many qualities he/she has, it is just simply you are happy with her/him. Hence isn't it all boils down to self interest? It's all about ME , MYSELF and I!

To a huge or large extent, i have to admit to what my in-house love professor aka my cousin aka Marcel had said. Recently , something similar happened to me, one of my friend asked me why i liked a particular colleague, i couldn't answer the question. I cannot tell him in exact words what attracted me to her. I could only tell him simply "you know, i just think i can picture both of us holding hands together". By that i mean, i know i can be happy with her IF she did become my gf. Unfortunately, i realised i could be living in my own little imagination. (but that's another entry)